Today, I feel, is a
by fiona
Today, I feel, is a turning point. It is the last day that I am free to enjoy the simple tasks of daily life (such as baking cake, doing laundry, and paying bills) without the nagging, biting knowledge that I have endless piles of medical information to learn. Tomorrow I start my second year of OHSUdom. I'm sure I will be diving in - drowning in information overload by the end of the first day. I wonder how many pages of reading will be assigned tomorrow.
Its weird, knowing that my life will be so entirely different tomorrow than it is today. I feel kind of neutral about it, distant. I'm not really that excited even to see all the people i got to know last year, or meet all the new faces of the incoming class. Those were always the things that made returning to college so inviting. And i have this vague feeling that I have just been in limbo for the past few weeks, dreading the start of school but unable to truly enjoy my free time. Well, maybe "dreading" is a bit strong...
I wonder if i will be able to sleep tonight. I have had a hard time of that lately.
Tonight, in addition to being my last night of freedom, also happens to be the debut of the rock opera at Holocene. The press screening, actually. I am really excited about that. Nervous as well. There will be so many people watching it. Yikes! I just ran into Jona in the hall, and he showed me the program, which looks really cool and nice. So many people have worked so hard on this project.
It will also be the debut of my new hair color: "dark copper." Its pretty orange actually, and I love it. I wonder, though, if it will be too edgy for my role as the professional, yet compassionate medical student.
Now, I must shower and decide just how glamorous I want to try to look tonight.
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Posted on September 1, 2003 | Comments (0)
