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One of my close friend’s mom is real sick and she’s moving home at the end of the month to be with her. She will probably be back eventually, but my heart is sick with sadness for her and for everything she’s going through. There’s so much you just can’t control in this world, but it’s an awful feeling to have it fly in your face and startle you when you least expect it. Feels like a punch to the stomach, leaving you dizzy and disoriented. And if all of this leaves me with a shaken world and a woozy head, I can’t imagine what my friend must feel like. I wish there was a salve I could buy at the store that would take away heartache.

I got this news earlier in the week and it’s just kind of been there in the background of everything else that’s going on, coloring it slightly. Which makes all the little bad things that happen seem that much more sour, and all the good things (there were a few good things lurking around) seem not quite as shiny.

J let his driver’s license lapse a long time ago, and now has to go through a huge ordeal to get a new one. He waited on line at the DMV for several hours yesterday to take the written test for the permit and was told at the last minute that he needed his social security card for ID, even though he had a passport and NY State ID. WTF, man? I consider us anomalies that we still have those little blue pieces of paper you get when you’re like twelve. What happens to the millions of people who lose them over the course of their lifetime? Anyway, he went equipped with the card and his birth certificate today only to fail to have a utilities bill on hand with his address. We’ll start fresh again tomorrow. I keep thinking they’ll require fried calamari or a blue top hat next because you can’t drive without those.

Also shadowing the week so far: my DJ canceled on me. It is probably my fault because I recruited a friend to do it, but it sort of makes it twice as sucky for me because now I’m not only losing a DJ at the wedding, I’m losing a friend. Two friends, really, because they’re both in the same band that got the big wedding-canceling gig for that night. I’m happy their band got a big gig, but I’m just going to be annoyed and bitter for a little while, if that’s okay with you.

My Wednesday could be going better. Anyone have anything lovely happen to them? I could stand to hear about it.